I can tell you some things about Grief now!
They are things I didn't want to know, and things I didn't want to learn!
God must have thought I needed some lessons in hard knocks!
So here I am on the road from hell!
It's the toughest road I've ever walked!
I'm been on this road now for 1,268 days.
Today, I'm just barely learning that I'm in charge of how I walk this path!
People have been telling me forever it's my choice, but it's hard to walk
when your legs have been cut off and every part of you is broken and bruised!
It's hard to feel like choosing anything but death.
Life is a card game!
You don't get to choose the cards you're dealt.
You do get to choose how you play the hand!
Sometimes it doesn't feel like much of a hand.
OH but it is! And you're cards are often better than you think.
And God will show you you're best options for how to conquer the game,
in the end. . . He will lead you to a WINNING VICTORY!
I truly believe this.
I found a quote.
I read this often.
It has been stitched into my soul.
I am happy as a clam to see 2017 behind me.
It was a rough year.
One more year down.
I survived!
Glade is truly my Ministering Angel
He walks this road right by my side.
In the past year he has watched over me and protected me through every storm!
He has been my eye in the tornado.
He is an amazing soul!
Every day I love him more.
I feel his love in return.
It carries me!
I saw this above quote and oh, how it moved me.
Every year I choose a motto.
Some motivating thought to grow with.
New Year Mottoes Past
2006: Just Do It
2007: A Thing Done When Thought of Needs No More Attention
2008: 2008 Will Be Great
2009: Rise Above It
2010: Be Happy!
2011: The Year of Great Relationships
2012: Be Present in The Moment
2013: Time Waits For No one
2014: Closer to Christ
2015 & 2016 were years I was trying to find the light.
2017 I started my way out of the dark.
2017: Hope and Heal
This year I've chosen, "Live Slowly" as my theme.
Live Slowly means to
Slow Down,
Appreciate the important things in life,
Prioritize and Value that which brings you
JOY, MEANING, and FULFILLMENT.
Simplify and live more fully.
I am learning to walk again.
It's a slow process.
I need to find healing
and understand my purpose
now that my primary motivation and reason for living
is physically gone.
I'm trying to find a new sense of self without my earthly companion.
Oh how I miss him in the flesh!
I am grateful today though for his spiritual presence and for my Savior.
Grateful the two of them are always by my side in this new journey.
